I have just spent a week laid low with a terrible migraine: I just managed to have a shower today, high time!
There are no particular events that I can think of that led to this: this one just came out of the blue.
The morning it began I went to sit outside in the sun with the geese: sometimes fresh air helps. This time it did not, but at least I, and they, managed some time outside before both the winter weather reappeared and my head let me down, yet again.
The goslings, full size now, are curious, very curious. Especially Tai. Before now I never realised that a goose could behave like a cockerel, but I have noticed before with Tai, give him a heap to climb on top of, and up he goes. He just loves to be cock of the walk. I have seen him on the top of huge dung heaps before now, but never had my camera with me. This time, since I was just sitting there feeling ill, I had time to snap him, although I am sure he would not be pleased at the picture of him on such a tiny little heap. Last time he was just about to pop over the wall when I caught him in time.
After extensive grazing and exploring all geese settled down for a good nap in the hot sun:
I just sat with them watching the wild birds and delighting, yet again, in being able to see all this. It made my present fears over my eyesight extremely poignant. Some very dark thoughts beset me, but my rational self knew they were caused by the low brain serotonin levels which are always present with a migraine.
How strange, to be brought so low emotionally but at the same time to be able to rationalise whence come the emotions. Yet, the rationalisation has no effect on the emotions. The tears still streamed down my face. All was so glorious, so peaceful, so tranquil and I was so grateful to be seeing it.
Finally, I had to give in, collect the geese, and go to bed. Thence followed six days of tunnelling through pain whilst trying to cope with the worst thoughts my brain chemistry could throw at me.
Still, today I am up and about, albeit very unsteady and wobbly. And tomorrow is another day. Back to my migraine research.
Glad to hear you are slowlyreturning to the world. My migraines are not nearly as debilitating, but enough so that I can empathize with your suffering. Isn’t it disappointing that with all we know about medicine that there is still so much unknown about the brain…..migraines as one example. Take care. Enjoy the geese—-they are probably as good a medicine as many.
Thanks for your supportive words. I agree, I cannot think why so little real progress has been made with migraines, especially since they affect so many people. Presumably, they are multi-caused, and personal to each sufferer. You are right, the geese, and the other animals, both domestic and wild, are a tremendously good medicine:)
To say you are a ‘Brick’ would be an understatement Sweff.
I do hope you can enjoy the forthcoming lovely (Hopefully) Spring days.
What a lovely compliment, I appreciate it. I do try to fight against self-pity: Such a pointless and wasteful emotion and not an attractive trait, to anyone, even the so-called sufferer! Yup, roll on the Spring days, I cannot wait to get outside again.
If you have to have pain there is no better place than nature, with the flowers and animals to remind one of the simple pleasure of being, the beauty of the earth, regardless of the world-liness – insects/macro in my case.
You are so right! I am sorry to hear of your hip pain and hope this is temporary:)
Ha! It’s all temporary, wouldn’t have it any other way …